User blog:ShermanTheMythran/It's My Turn

I always hated goodbye blogs. They caused needless and pointless drama, and seem to often end up just being a way to get the feeling that you're to be missed. I always thought that if someone was going to leave, it'd best be done by just... leaving. Set up some ways to keep in touch with your closest friends, and go without the drama. That way, you wouldn't shred your credibility when you came bouncing back because you never intended to leave in the first place, you just wanted to throw a pity-party. Not accusing anyone here, don't even have any particular user in mind; I'm just saying. But that being said, it must seem incredibly hypocritical that I'm telling you all of this... in a leaving blog.

Except that this isn't a leaving blog, it's a blog of entirely different intent in which I must explain the fact that I'm leaving due to the complex nature of its purpose.

I'll start by saying that my schedule is fast filling up; in addition to my three normal classes at school, I'm doing an AP course, a course through duel-enrollment at the community college, a scholarship-based on-campus course at a local private college, violin and piano studies, orchestra, string quartet, etc., and I desperately need to start prioritizing if I want to make it through the year alive. LMBW seems to have a psychological effect on people (or at least me), that keeps drawing you back to see what's changed. I've observed the same effect from people on Facebook and Google Plus. Even if the site doesn't suck up a lot of your time, it creates tension in your mind from the feeling of not knowing what's going on while you're away. Thus, depending on how much time LMBW takes up in your life, it will either eat your time or generate stress. I've come to the point now where I can't afford either, so that's why I'm leaving.

Which still doesn't explain the purpose of this blog. Allow me to state one simple fact: people change. They grow older and begin evolving more distinctive mindsets; priorities shift, emotions strengthen, and friendships strain. I've observed some good changes in people, and some changes that I never wanted to see happen to me.

As many people grow older and/or more accustomed to an environment, they tend to develop an air of elitism. I always wanted to be something of the "go-to" guy, who you could trust for anything and everything, always friendly and willing to help.... But I feel that lately, my desire to be rational has led me to be a colder, less friendly person - exactly who I wanted to never be. Dry sarcasm (to the point of arrogance) has overcome any sense of humor I'd had before. So I need help from everyone reading this. If you could give me feedback on my character, what I can change and how I could become a more helpful person, I'd greatly appreciate it. Please don't be reserved in sharing your opinions, I can take any level of negativity; I need you to be critical.

Now, if I had asked for this and then quietly left, you can see how that might have put myself or anyone who left a critical opinion in a bad light. I will not be leaving because of any person or anything they've said. Just making that clear. As one final request, I'd appreciate feedback in comments much more than farewells, as I'm sure I'll speak to many of you again in the future. You can find me on Steam as maestro35, on Skype as live:maestro35, and you can email me at lufanfiction@outlook.com (I'd give you my personal address, but I think it might have my real name linked to it). I'll still be working part-time on both Project BUILD and Brickimedia; in the case that this wiki ever decides to move to Brickimedia again when the site is open to the public, I will be more than happy to do everything in my power to coordinate the move.

I'll miss every one of you, but I'm afraid my decision to leave is for the better; I'll be around for a few more days to collect any feedback you guys have for me, but beyond that, I wish you all the best of luck! Don't have too much fun without me! ;)