Thread:GuacamoleCCXR/@comment-5780776-20150222184432/@comment-5780776-20150301054654

Actually, you can start it right past Snakehead, if you like. I consider it as canon as Crocodile Tears and Scorpia Rising. :P

And... good. I guess. You have strange taste, maybe. :P Anyway, I'll give you more of such things later, though I think what I've been writing has been a bit morose for a number of reasons, but it's a better way to deal with it than any of the usual alternatives. And I haven't even really /had/ the time to cry. :P But I've been using far more italics because they're wonderful things. :P Don't you worry though, I'm fine enough and I'm probably just being over-angsty because I miss you so much. :P

I feel kind of useless right now about the story and sort of bad that I'm making you do all the work for it right now and kind of despondent because I think all my ideas have already been used before, and I can't bear to be so /unoriginal/ so I'm just being a sulking and internally tortured artist. But just on the inside, because my family likes it more when they think I'm happy, so it's just to humour myself. :P I just wish we could actually talk in real time about this instead of /this/.

But instead we've got /this/ with Celestia-knows how many spies and observers and Alemases, who are too cowardly to reveal themselves and get shot down in a fair fight, so they're just going to keep on being sly. :|

Honestly, I don't know what's gotten into me. :P I'm quite sorry and I hope I'll get back to normal soon enough without going raving mad and fleeing to the desert. I probably just need some proper music. :P But it's just one more week, true, and I haven't caught any gay fever here in Florida (sorry father c:) so I'll probably make it back home fine, and stop talking about myself and being narcissistic and self-pitying, because I'm pretty sure it's irritating, and I know it's not good. One can tell when too many sentences begin with "I" which is a bad habit of mine, and now you're going to look back at everything I've ever said and realise it's true, in conversations and Hangouts and letters. Which is partly why I've never told you this particular fact before, because now I know I'm going to be silently judged all the time, and even now I'm not sure if I should actually leave this in here, but I think I shall. I, I, I. I'm sorry, and if you shame me enough I'll get over myself. :P

Now I'm scared to say "I" for the rest of this because I know you're going to notice. :P

All of this has probably been a little unsettling to you, for which I apologise because I really shouldn't do that because it's unfair and worrisome, and it's not like /you've/ been telling me every little thing, so I shouldn't take advantage of the fact that you'll listen to /me/ being self-absorbed, and tell you every dumb little happening, and I'm sorry, and I'm probably too tired to be doing this. I've been as irresponsible about sleeping enough as you usually are, so now you can tell me I'm a hypocrite all you want, and I'd best go fall asleep before I completely rip myself to pieces.

It'll be alright tomorrow, though that's the last day I can talk here. 3: Oh, well. Things will be okay. Keep an eye on After Hours, please. c:

And hey, it's a Sunday right now and I'm online. Of all the impossibilities. :P

I want to say something more but I can't.

You're always worth the risk, but why take the risk if it's not a matter of life and death? Is that being disloyal, or just smart? Maybe any truly devoted person would take the chance for anything. (I'll have to think about that.) However, I can tell you'd tell me not to, which means you understand, so I don't even need to say anything, you perfect Speciallest.