User blog comment:Bourgeoisie/Why current moderating practices aren't working/@comment-7855039-20150322230911

This blog actually really helped me a ton. Let me make a speech:

(Edit: this didnt even really connect to your blog at all. eh. whatever. i need to spit some words)

WHY I WAS A DOPE MODERATOR BEFORE I REQUESTED TO BE DEMOTED:

Okay, so I think it was last December. I was sitting in chat, right, and I was thinking "yo, I've never kicked or banned someone. like ever." and then I decided I shouldn't be a mod because I didnt use my tools. I was so wrong.

The thing is, I realized I didn't use my tools is because I didn't /need/ to. I actually am pretty good at solving arguments and such, (when I want to get involved), in my opinion, but the constant remark I got pre-modship was "harold you aint a mod yo." So really, being a mod gave me authority to do the same thing I was doing pre-mod. But then, my thinking in me being a bad mod was "Man, I'm doing the same thing I was doing before I was a mod. I am a bad at this. I shouldn't be a mod." I was wrong. Very wrong.

The thing is, like I just mentioned, really I just needed the start so people would listen to me. I solved arguments and change the topic ("hey how about those sports last night!") BEFORE being a mod, WHILE, and AFTER. I was an idiot for thinking that because I was a mod I needed to use my tools, follow the rules to the best of my ability, etc etc. I'm all about the emotional connection between users, and just talking it out like people. no big words, no links to policies: just me and users. you know? And I was stupid for thinking I was a bad mod. Now that I am back to being a user, I am told again "harold, you're not a mod, you can't tell me what to do" or "harold you have no authority." so yeah, maybe the only way for people to listen to me and my opinions and how to solve the problem is for me to have a star. so i messed up. but if people just realized I am trying to HELP yall, I'm trying to SOLVE the problem, then a start is not necessary. But sometimes people only listen to mods, as I realized when  I was one – people tended to listen to me more. but that shouldnt be a thing. all voices should be heard, you feel? IDK. This didnt even connect to your blog that  much. but it's related to my experience as a mod.

tl;dr: I was good at solving arguments before, during, and after mod. I didn't use my tools (kicking/banning) and I was good. However people only listened to me when I had that star. I really don't know anymore. I'm just spittin' words.

Peace :)

-harold89