User blog comment:EpicTruth/Epic Prayer Room/@comment-5772846-20150903173248

So, I was going to type a long comment a few days ago about this, but I accidentally closed the page in the middle so I sort of gave up. However, last night kind of brought it back to my mind, so I'll post it (hopefully minus rambling details, but you never know). Warning, it will contain some discussion of crushes and/or liking people. That might come across as immature, but situations like that need prayer too. :P (And Alemas, sorry, but if you're reading this ima bring up bae regardless of your warning :P)

In short, I like a girl (she just so happens to be Person A from my request below, and we're friends, but she's always had this better relationship with this other guy at church too. He told her he liked her last year (a move I personally disagree with when you're not really ready to move forward into a relationship, but, to each his own, I suppose. Maybe my hesitation to do a thing of that sort is why nice guys finish last :P), and they talk a ton, etc. I definitely struggled for a while with some serious jealousy of how they interact - he just oozed compliments for her, she sometimes got weirded out, but in the end she liked him too... plus being upset at being majorly, majorly friendzoned. It's unfair to get upset over those things, but they were definitely still feelings I had to work through, and I still am. Prayer would be appreciated in that regard as well.

I kind of hit a new low last night, however, when it was revealed that my "rival" asked her to homecoming. I'm homeschooled, so I never have dances (trust me, if I did, I'd ask her), so there's no way to compete in that area. It felt much worse, though, because it became apparent that it had happened right in front of my face. Last time I saw them, the squad was hanging out, and they stepped away for a minute to discuss something. Turns out that it was him inviting her to that dance. :/ so yeah, I felt thoroughly gut-punched.

All of this might sound really ridiculous, as it's all just silly teenage romance stuff, and the odds are that building a solid friendship with her will pay off far more than a rushed romance at a young age, but they're very much still feelings I struggle with. This is like, one of maybe two girls I've crushed on, ever, and it's one of those ones where you just fall hopelessly for them. :P So yeah, I guess I'm asking for prayer for a few things - that I would have patience, both in just biding my time and in dealing and interacting with them, that I would keep my jealousy and sometimes anger at the other guy in check, and that I would keep a Christlike mindset in all of this. Obviously, she's not obligated to like me, and it's up to her who she likes - that doesn't change the fact that it's rather devastating for the overlooked, though. :P So yeah, hopefully all of this ramble makes sense and doesn't sound too stupid. I know everything passes, and this issue is small in comparison to a lot, but the stress from there is starting to creep into other parts of my life, and just... ugh. :P Anyway. If you read all of this, congratulations. :P