User blog:LordWeirdo/grandpa hath returned



Yep, I'm back home. c: Still won't be on too much, and should probably stay out of serious votes for the time being, but I'm back. c:

For the longest time, I hesitated to call this my "home wiki". I always thought I'd move on to another place; nowhere specific, but somewhere I thought would be more suited to my skills and fandoms. But all I found were dead wikis or places with no corner for a lonely little Weirdo to occupy. :c

So yeah, I'm back till I get bored with y'all again. This wiki is part of my life (much as I hate the fact), and it's just right for me to sit around and release all my stupidity. c: Much to my surprise, I missed y'all. c:

This blog has a secondary purpose: for me to be a little more open than usual. I've been staying alone, house-sitting for vacationing friends, and it's afforded me unprecedented opportunity for self-reflection. You may or may not have noticed, but I can be quite moody at times. These dark moods have been coming more frequently over the last couple of months. Symptoms of these periods include me wanting to be alone (more than usual) and (until recently) wanting to squeeze myself into dark corners. I still don't understand that part.

I had been making progress on figuring it out, but when I began my period of solitude nearly two weeks ago, I finally began to break through. Simply put, I have trouble handling failure.

I know, it's dumb. Especially for a guy who celebrates when he puts on a lousy performance in games and has "WeirdoTheFailure" as his MC gamertag. Yet when I have it all together, then suddenly don't, I crash. For example, I took failing my second driving test due to mental error very hard.

I've always prided myself on being so immovable. I think that's part of my problem. I'm so impenetrable that I have to do all the grilling myself. :c And believe me, I do.

I'm not asking for sympathy or accommodation here, just letting y'all know where I'm at emotionally/spiritually. Don't expect me to discuss this again, though I probably won't ignore (deliberately) messages concerning my welfare. For the record, I'm not at a point (yet, if ever) where I might harm myself, so don't worry about me too much.

So yeah, I'm back, and get off my lawn. » Grandpa Weirdo™ » (wall)  »