User blog:Madkatmaximus/Clarifying Some Things

It's come to my attention that apparently several users still have issue with my retirement, and me retaining my rights. Now, I'd have thought this would have been a done deal and no one would still be talking about it, but then I've been wrong before. Now, if the apparent "problem" pertaining to me keeping my adminship had been brought up more times before with other retired admins, I wouldn't take issue, but some of you have got this idea that apparently I'm going to misuse my rights. I'd say it's nice to know how low you think of me, but I honestly don't really care much. What I do care about is clarifying my leaving, which I didn't think I'd need to do at the time, but I digress.

I left because there had been a lot of people at the time that were treating me and talking about me very poorly(and to my knowledge, still are, as evidenced by some recent chatlogs I’ve been shown). There was no way for me to actively take care of it efficiently, as when I had tried in the past it was thrown in my face. As it was, I had/have better things to do in life now with friends and getting a job, and I had already tried leaving once due to declining interest. I returned after that because I was at a very low point in life and needed a distraction, and something to do. I'm still not out of the hole, but I've occupied myself with better things and there's just no reason to waste my time here trying to get enjoyment out of it, and rather than making another big long winded retirement again I just left with a simple bye. (There's also the fact that I was very suicidal that night, but I won't go into that.) I still check the admin site on occasion when something of interest shows up. (For the record, a lot of retired admins have done/do this; I won't say who because I don't want to sound like I'm throwing any of them under the bus, which I certainly am not as I don't see any problem with it, just pointing out the fact.)

Apparently me coming on a few times since retiring is a problem, for whatever reason, since retired users never do that. Ever. Sarcasm aside, if that's the case, why don't you get on to other retired admins, and even non admins for joining? If you're going to make empty accusations, you should at least be consistent about it. It’s also ironic that some of the people taking issue with me have retired(and obviously returned) themselves before.The only reasons I've even gotten on since retiring was for a couple of votes that I only knew of because someone told me about them, and when certain users were on chat that I enjoy hanging around. Apparently because I find this community toxic, and have multiple issues with this site that I haven't even elaborated on, that makes my retirement less valid than other's retirements. All because I previously retired once before(I'd also like to point out that even then I was gone for about a month before returning). As an admin, if I’m compelled to leave for personal reasons or otherwise, then I’m completely allowed to do so. I shouldn’t be tethered to this site as if it’s a felony to leave. If I find this community to be toxic and harmful to myself, I'm under no obligation to stay. As such, not everyone that leaves something, whether it be a website or a community, does so immediately and ultimately.

Please stop using the false front of having valid concerns about me, It's just really coming across as being nitpicky for the sake of being nitpicky. I'm not sure what's caused you to have an inherent dislike for me, and if I did anything to you without knowing, I'm truly sorry. But to be frank, get off of your high horse and take off your tinfoil hats because I'm not going to do anything to any of you, lol. I've had a very low opinion of this website for a very long time, and not once did it ever affect my voting/moderating/etc. I pretty quickly learned how to separate personal feelings on a subject from administrating efficiently when it was necessary. If I were seriously going to do something bad here, I would have already. There's been nothing stopping me.

The fact that I even had to type any of this out is, to put it bluntly, kind of stupid. And now since apparently the only way to be a True Retiree is to never do anything further on this site, I won't be participating in anything at all after this. To those of you who were kind and understanding, thank you.