User blog:Supitsnotkira/I lost count of how many times ive attempted leaving

Yep. Still alive.. Sorry.

So over the past year ive had this "problem" with my life, and the problem is i haven't been wanting to live it. Depression used to be just a small thing that i was hoping was just a puberty thing that id move on from, but it slowly got worse over time and now im self harming and contemplating suicide. Last night i was on chat and probably had close to one of my worst breakdowns so far, and Keps if youre reading this, i did indeed try to commit suicide before a loved one found me.

I'm pretty sure the reason i didnt actually leave like the past 2 times i posted a blog about this was because this is the only place i know of that really has people on it most of the day, so when i have no one to talk to i just automatically think "Oh, hey. Theres a place full of people. Lets go there." But as i slowly realized nobody gives a shit about whether i live or not, i decided i dont really want to be here and that i could easily find another chatroom where nobody knows how much of a prick i actually am.

Its pretty obvious i dont have many friends, and they sure as hell arent on this wiki. Those that i wish to stay in contact with i can find elsewhere, so theres no need to stay here. I apologize for my behavior over the past year or however long ive been here, and i can assure you that (surprisingly) i dont act like this irl. I dont ask for pity, or for anyone to comment on this at all... Just kinda putting this out there.

I'll be around for a few days after this blog is published to sweep whatever pictures of me off this wiki from this account and my old one, but after that my account will be deleted and ill be out of your hair.

-Thanks Ava and Spidey for actually liking me, you guys are great friends.

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