User:BraveNewRoyalty/Chat/Logs/1 September 2018

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[03:25] <AmzingPythro> bitch dab [03:26] <The Last Booker DeWitt> https://movienowbox197189.wikia.com/wiki/Special:Chat party time [03:27] <Nightfall396> oh shit, here comes nigman [03:28] <The Last Booker DeWitt> dibbledy dab [03:48] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> can we all agree that the lil niggas in the Arthur movies look like rats [03:52] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> right [03:55] <BraveNewRoyalty> yes [03:56] <BraveNewRoyalty> nigma [03:56] <BraveNewRoyalty> in that chat [03:56] <BraveNewRoyalty> i saw some cc people [03:56] <BraveNewRoyalty> and yeeted out [03:57] <The Last Booker DeWitt> theyre tryna demote me [03:57] <The Last Booker DeWitt> i have no idea why that wiki exists its literally bootleg imdb but written by autistic wikians [03:58] <BraveNewRoyalty> why are you an admin [03:58] <The Last Booker DeWitt> i tricked the founder into giving me buro [03:58] <BraveNewRoyalty> lmao what [03:59] <The Last Booker DeWitt> i told him i was gonna unprotect all the pages on his wiki for him [03:59] <The Last Booker DeWitt> but then i got a job [04:00] <Nightfall396> absolute kek [04:00] <BraveNewRoyalty> lol [04:00] <Nightfall396> illusion 100 [04:01] <NancyWho> ello [04:01] <The Last Booker DeWitt> hey [04:01] <NancyWho> what's shakin [04:02] <The Last Booker DeWitt> haha nothing [04:02] <The Last Booker DeWitt> haha that link probably doesnt work either tears of joy emoji [04:02] <NancyWho> wot [04:02] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> fuck of all the tabs to change to i change to the lmbw tab [04:03] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> i think he meant to link to https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Suicidal_ideation [04:03] <The Last Booker DeWitt> thanks kent [04:03] <NancyWho> why [04:03] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> shut up nigga youre me [04:04] <NancyWho> I'm getting sick [04:04] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> i dont think he wants to talk about it [04:04] <The Last Booker DeWitt> yeah i'm right [04:04] <The Last Booker DeWitt> why are you getting sick [04:04] <NancyWho> Aw, did something happen in your personal life, babe? :c [04:04] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> yes [04:04] <NancyWho> and idk, my throat is sore [04:05] <NancyWho> it's probably cuz I'm back living in the dorm [04:05] <The Last Booker DeWitt> that's not good [04:05] <The Last Booker DeWitt> are you allergic to something in the dorm [04:05] <BraveNewRoyalty> keeping track of two accounts of the same person always messes with me [04:05] <NancyWho> no it's just germs and shit [04:05] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> ah gotcha [04:06] <NancyWho> went out to dinner tonight [04:06] <NancyWho> I paid lol [04:06] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> ahhh [04:06] <The Last Booker DeWitt> at least you had someone to pay for [04:06] <BraveNewRoyalty> F [04:06] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> stop being depressing [04:06] <NancyWho> I got 31 free dollars [04:06] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> what restaurant [04:06] <NancyWho> Ah, I figured you were upset about your relationship [04:07] <NancyWho> We went to Hemmingway's which is like a restaurant in Bass Pro [04:07] <NancyWho> it was actually really good [04:07] <NancyWho> also Bass Pro is fucking massive as shit [04:07] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> I think he's purposely been failing to mention it for quite some time to both of you [04:07] <NancyWho> I touched a duck [04:07] <NancyWho> it was alive [04:07] <BraveNewRoyalty> i seriously read that as dick [04:08] <The Last Booker DeWitt> me too [04:08] <NancyWho> I didn't touch one of those [04:08] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> I want to go in a Bass Pro [04:08] <The Last Booker DeWitt> But I'm not white so it would be weird [04:08] <NancyWho> The one here is the biggest one apparently [04:09] <The Last Booker DeWitt> did you know that ernest Hemingway killed himself [04:09] <NancyWho> it's got a huge aquarium [04:09] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> fuck off booker [04:09] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> what kinda fish [04:09] <The Last Booker DeWitt> catfish [04:09] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> ouch [04:10] <NancyWho> Did you know that he killed himself because J Edgar Hoover was blackmailing him [04:10] <NancyWho> At least according to my psychology professor lol [04:10] <The Last Booker DeWitt> that's sad [04:10] <NancyWho> and all kinds. It's actually like one of the biggest aquariums in the country I guess. Like a legit one [04:10] <NancyWho> I want to go [04:11] <BraveNewRoyalty> fishe [04:11] <NancyWho> but I don't $40 per person want to go [04:11] <The Last Booker DeWitt> I remember reading Hemingway in 11th grade [04:11] <BraveNewRoyalty> i read hemingway in 8th grade (nerd) [04:11] <BraveNewRoyalty> [04:11] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> It was rather inspiring, helped me overcome some of my fears [04:11] <The Last Booker DeWitt> yeah well at the end of the day we're not any better off kent [04:12] <NancyWho> I read hemingway in 6th grade bitchessss [04:12] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> Interesting that the biggest BPS would have one of the biggest aquariums [04:12] <The Last Booker DeWitt> bepis lmao [04:12] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> oh yeah by the way brave [04:12] <NancyWho> a large of the bass pro is the museum and aquarium at this point. But the building is one of the biggest I've ever seen [04:12] <NancyWho> it's just massive [04:13] <The Last Booker DeWitt> kent got admin on the other wiki because i convinced the other admin [04:13] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> he convinced the other admin that there's two of us [04:13] <The Last Booker DeWitt> when it's really just one of us on two accounts [04:13] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> sometimes it's hard to switch [04:14] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> izzy what kinda english is that [04:15] <The Last Booker DeWitt> woah theres a shipwreck in the aquarium is it real or fake [04:15] <NancyWho> there is? [04:16] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> i googled it [04:16] <The Last Booker DeWitt> its probably a sculpture kent [04:16] <The Last Booker DeWitt> its the mast moron [04:17] <NancyWho> looks cool [04:17] <NancyWho> i want to goooo [04:17] <NancyWho> there was a fish tank at the restaurant [04:17] <The Last Booker DeWitt> oh I thought you went [04:18] <NancyWho> Drake asked the lady if we could be seated by it "so the 5 year old can look at the fishes" [04:18] <NancyWho> I did like looking at the fishes tho [04:18] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> Hahhaaa [04:18] <The Last Booker DeWitt> i bet they fillet those fish every once in a while [04:19] <NancyWho> nah, too tiny I think [04:19] <NancyWho> I ranted over dinner about how I hate sunfish [04:20] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> booker watched "pokemon go is the end of humanity" today, it was the only thing that made him laugh [04:20] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> what [04:20] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> s so bad about sunfish [04:20] <NancyWho> i love filthy frank [04:20] <The Last Booker DeWitt> why do you care Kent we dont even eat seafood my nigga [04:20] <NancyWho> and sunfish are fucking retarded [04:21] <NancyWho> let me show you a picture that perfectly sums up a sunfish's existance [04:21] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> they're not edible booker [04:21] <Nightfall396> the other wiki just roleplay murdered me. I think they caught on [04:21] <Nightfall396> and kent [04:21] <NancyWho> https://i.dailymail.co.uk/i/pix/2015/07/24/16/2ACD7C8A00000578-3173611-image-a-20_1437752854462.jpg [04:21] <NancyWho> this retard is a sunfish [04:22] <NancyWho> they can even fucking swim they flop around and frequently get stuck on the surface of the ocean [04:22] <NancyWho> their mouths are fused together and are permanently open [04:22] <NancyWho> look at it it's a fucking blob [04:23] <NancyWho> they provide no nutritional value so they aren't a food source for any animal [04:23] <The Last Booker DeWitt> pokemon go might have made me laugh today, but Kent just lmao'd at that fish [04:23] <NancyWho> seals literally just bite them because they see them as a toy [04:23] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> why was the seal eating it [04:23] <NancyWho> it's playing basically [04:24] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> LOL [04:24] <NancyWho> the only reason they survive [04:24] <NancyWho> is because females lay 300 MILLION eggs at one time [04:24] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> holy shit [04:24] <NancyWho> so it would be statistically impossible for at least some not to make it to adulthood [04:25] <NancyWho> they're so retarded and I hate them [04:26] <The Last Booker DeWitt> "sunfish are considered a delicacy in some parts of the world" [04:26] <NancyWho> https://images.earthtouchnews.com/media/1517189/3.jpg [04:26] <NancyWho> look at its stupid face [04:27] <The Last Booker DeWitt> if they are an endangered species how bad are their eggs [04:27] <The Last Booker DeWitt> they lay 300 million [04:27] <Nightfall396> lmao [04:27] <NancyWho> they literally make no evolutionary sense [04:27] <NancyWho> like why are they here [04:27] <NancyWho> I don't know [04:27] <NancyWho> scientists don't know [04:27] <NancyWho> sunfish REALLY don't know [04:28] <The Last Booker DeWitt> does god know [04:28] <NancyWho> maybe [04:28] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> booker please [04:28] <NancyWho> I think god had a bunch of leftover fish parts and was just like "yep.......good enough" and plopped it into the sea [04:28] <The Last Booker DeWitt> <img class="chatags-image" src="http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/2/24/Mola_mola-Skelett%2C_Naturhistorisches_Museum_Wien.jpg"> why would you eat this [04:29] <The Last Booker DeWitt> nigga looks like a dinosaur [04:29] <NancyWho> they're huge too [04:29] <NancyWho> they've killed people before [04:29] <NancyWho> because these retards flop around and get stuck in boats [04:29] <The Last Booker DeWitt> !!! [04:30] <Nightfall396> imagine having your obituary paired with an image of a sunfish [04:30] <NancyWho> https://www.rapidmedia.com/media/k2/items/cache/b86171671ca8cea24d2df99b19fd5343_XL.jpg [04:30] <NancyWho> imagine this landing on your head [04:30] <Nightfall396> kek [04:30] <The Last Booker DeWitt> "They're not considered dangerous. In fact, only one man has ever been killed by a sunfish - and that was because it landed on him and squashed him." [04:30] <The Last Booker DeWitt> [04:30] <The Last Booker DeWitt> [04:31] <NancyWho> it's so horrible [04:31] <NancyWho> and yet I laugh [04:31] <NancyWho> because [04:31] <NancyWho> what a way to go [04:31] <NancyWho> accidentally squashed by a retard [04:31] <The Last Booker DeWitt> yoo that looks like a combine advisor pod [04:32] <Nightfall396> i'm just imagining his family looking him up on the internet to show his kids what he looked like [04:32] <NancyWho> they look weird as babies [04:32] <Nightfall396> and the kids just see that he got squashed by a fish [04:32] <NancyWho> https://i.pinimg.com/originals/c7/21/fa/c721fac342b59cbdaa7adc05cff78c0a.jpg [04:33] <Nightfall396> *I meant grandkids but I guess his kids could not know what he looked like too [04:33] <Nightfall396> wot [04:33] <NancyWho> that's a sunfish [04:33] <NancyWho> I don't understand how they go from that to massive hulking retards [04:34] <The Last Booker DeWitt> it looks like an alien [04:34] <The Last Booker DeWitt> yall niggas want a science meme [04:34] <NancyWho> tru [04:35] <NancyWho> yes [04:35] <Nightfall396> yes [04:35] <The Last Booker DeWitt> <img class="chatags-image" src="http://img.memecdn.com/pluto-is-a-planet-change-my-mind_o_7236566.jpg"> [04:35] <NancyWho> lmao [04:35] <Nightfall396> (ok) [04:35] <NancyWho> pluto will always be a planet to me [04:36] <BraveNewRoyalty> sunfish look like a pokemon [04:36] <BraveNewRoyalty> https://cdn.bulbagarden.net/upload/thumb/1/10/594Alomomola.png/900px-594Alomomola.png [04:36] <BraveNewRoyalty> fuck [04:36] <The Last Booker DeWitt> bruh [04:36] <The Last Booker DeWitt> that is a sunfish pokemon [04:37] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> "The ocean sunfish or common mola (Mola mola) is the heaviest known bony fish in the world." [04:37] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> "Alomomola.png" [04:40] <NancyWho> I guess I have the room to myself tonight [04:40] <NancyWho> sweet [04:42] <The Last Booker DeWitt> did your roommate yeet [04:44] <NancyWho> she said she was going home this weekend but I didn't know if she was leaving today or tomorrow [04:46] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> ah [04:46] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> well if she lives quite some distance away i would imagine it'd be tonight [04:46] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> gotta be back by monday [04:46] <NancyWho> monday is labor day [04:46] <The Last Booker DeWitt> tuesday dummy its labour day next week [04:47] <NancyWho> drake wants to fuck in the dorm which I don't get but whatever [04:48] <The Last Booker DeWitt> do it [04:48] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> he probably just wants a new environment [04:49] <NancyWho> he says it's for "nostalgia" [04:51] <The Last Booker DeWitt> oh [04:51] <NancyWho> idk how to feel about that lol [04:51] <The Last Booker DeWitt> nostalgia for the dorm or nostalgia for fucking in the dorm [04:51] <The Last Booker DeWitt> or both [04:51] <NancyWho> for fucking in the dorm lol [04:51] <NancyWho> he hates dorms [04:52] <BraveNewRoyalty> have you ever had to kick a roommate out to fuck [04:52] <BraveNewRoyalty> or is the expectation that the roommate pretends to not know its going on [04:53] <NancyWho> I have never fucked in the dorm and the only reason it's happening now is because she's gone for the weekend lol [04:57] <The Last Booker DeWitt> lit [04:59] <NancyWho> I have cried a lot the past few weeks [04:59] <NancyWho> I think we're over the rough patch tho [05:00] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> lucky [05:00] <The Last Booker DeWitt> hey kent i thought i was supposed to be the depressed one [05:01] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> I typed it with a positive tone. [05:01] <The Last Booker DeWitt> and she would know that how [05:01] <The Last Booker DeWitt> i think i've only cried 3 times [05:01] <The Last Booker DeWitt> so far [05:02] <NancyWho> I cry a lot [05:02] <The Last Booker DeWitt> once for each month i got backstabbed [05:02] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> ouch booker [05:02] <NancyWho> oh I see [05:02] <NancyWho> was something happening over the summer :c [05:03] <The Last Booker DeWitt> yes [05:03] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> Quite some time before that, actually. [05:03] <The Last Booker DeWitt> ok mr intellectual [05:04] <NancyWho> that sucks. I had a moment when I got back where I thought I had been cheated on. Sucks ass [05:04] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> Hey at least I'm not the one trying to put the stranglehold on the other. [05:04] <The Last Booker DeWitt> Kent we're figures of each other's imaginations [05:06] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> Booker over here is going to take ages to get over it. Me, on the other hand [05:07] <NancyWho> My mom always told me it will take double the length of the relationship to fully get over it [05:07] <The Last Booker DeWitt> Well if I'm going to be honest Kent both of us hate being lied to by cowards. [05:07] <NancyWho> obviously you won't be sad all the time [05:07] <NancyWho> and it seems like it's probably for the besy [05:07] <NancyWho> *best [05:07] <The Last Booker DeWitt> It'd be a lot easier to deal with if she had just said it to my fuckin face Kent [05:08] <NancyWho> some people are just bad people [05:08] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> Well Booker honestly I don't really blame you for feeling that way. She really never did tell you, you had to investigate for ages. [05:09] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> I don't think he'll take kindly to that notion. He still loves her for some delusional reason. [05:10] <NancyWho> I mean, hell, I felt like I had a hole in my chest when fucking Brandon dumped me and that barely lasted a month [05:10] <The Last Booker DeWitt> Izzy only one person tried to tell me [05:10] <NancyWho> why [05:10] <The Last Booker DeWitt> And he showed me proof and I didn't understand what the proof meant so I told him to fuck off [05:12] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> Why? [05:13] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> Because he had a crush on me so he betrayed the trust of his best friend to try to tell me. [05:13] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> Naturally Booker felt like this other person was trying to ruin the relationship, but it turns out he was right... [05:14] <The Last Booker DeWitt> Yeah but nobody tried to explain what I was seeing in the screenshots. It just looked like meaningless discussion. It [05:14] <NancyWho> well it's really hard to see something like that when you're in the middle of a relationship and you feel like you really care for someone [05:14] <The Last Booker DeWitt> It's not entirely my fault [05:15] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> Well see the thing is that I read the screenshots when they were sent to me [05:15] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> But I thought she was talking about the person she was allegedly cheating on me with [05:16] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> But she was really talking about Booker [05:16] <The Last Booker DeWitt> If only I had correctly understood the context of what I was sent, everything would be different. [05:16] <NancyWho> obviously, this sucks. But is it not ultimately for the best. Even if you love someone do you really want them if you know they don't care enough about you not to break your heart by doing something like that [05:17] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> It's more complicated than that, but I do agree with you [05:19] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> It's true we were mistreating her but at the end of the day, she made me the victim instead of herself. [05:20] <NancyWho> well obviously I don't know the details. It just seems like ultimately it will be for the best. Grieve for a while, cuz that's normal and healthy. Then learn from your mistakes so that when you meet a new person you'll end up with a much better relationship than before [05:22] <The Last Booker DeWitt> I just wish she wasn't a lying coward. Izzy I've been dishonored to the highest degree I can't just let it go [05:23] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> That's always been the problem with the other half [05:24] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> The whole reason that we basically declared war on LMBW for years [05:24] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> He just doesn't let go [05:24] <NancyWho> yes except [05:25] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> He feels like this has been Nigma Wars but IRL Relationship edition [05:26] <NancyWho> You're not a child anymore. You will eventually meet someone who you think is absolutely amazing and eventually, you're going to have a talk about each other's previous relationships. "I chose to make my ex's life miserable because she cheated on me because maybe I didn't always treat her the best" isn't going to fly so well [05:26] <The Last Booker DeWitt> Which has been true. I've drawn parallels between everything. [05:27] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> Well there's always been the selective truth. Which would also make us no better than her. [05:28] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> Selective truth is actually what caused problems to begin with anyway. [05:28] <NancyWho> Sometimes an "I'm sorry for what I did wrong, but you're also a massive fucking bitch so fuck you" is all you need [05:28] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> I think [05:28] <NancyWho> also probably what's healthiest [05:28] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> Oh well yeah that's what we meant [05:28] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> But getting a hold of her is nigh impossible [05:28] <NancyWho> I wouldn't try and contact her [05:29] <NancyWho> if you see her, then maybe. Otherwise you make her feel important and also give her fuel to use against you [05:29] <The Last Booker DeWitt> It's already been done Izzy, mission failed on all easy levels [05:29] <NancyWho> Well that's fine [05:29] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> There's always the more elaborate things. Gives Booker a sense of purpose [05:29] <NancyWho> just stop now [05:29] <NancyWho> When Brandon dumped me, we had been dating a measly month [05:30] <NancyWho> I said okay cool bye don't wanna be friends don't contact me and never contacted him again and it drove him crazy lmao [05:30] <NancyWho> he basically social media stalked me for months [05:30] <The Last Booker DeWitt> yeah well at least there was clarity on what happened [05:31] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> took us until today to finally realize it [05:31] <The Last Booker DeWitt> otherwise we wouldn't be talking to each other like we're different people [05:31] <NancyWho> but I would say by trying to contact her or trying to get back at her you give her satisfaction. She obviously didn't care enough about your feelings to tell you what was going on. So if you freak out and do something stupid you will only be vindicating her [05:32] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> we know [05:32] <NancyWho> just let her make herself look bad [05:32] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> to who [05:32] <The Last Booker DeWitt> like 3 people i bet [05:32] <The Last Booker DeWitt> nobody cares about us [05:33] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> again, that's a bit depressing booker [05:33] <NancyWho> To the people around her. People will always reveal themselves. Just try to be a better person for your future relationship. There will be other people [05:34] <NancyWho> hell, I didn't have my first serious relationship until now, and I'm 21, so you got time [05:34] <The Last Booker DeWitt> I won't trust anyone for a long time [05:35] <NancyWho> Probably not. That's okay. You need time to heal and get over it. How long did the relationship last? [05:35] <The Last Booker DeWitt> 355 days but she meant so much to me for so much time beforehand [05:36] <NancyWho> so about a year? [05:36] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> it would have been [05:36] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> I guess she tried to get rid of me before all the important stuff happened [05:36] <NancyWho> important stuff? [05:36] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> her birthday and our anniversary [05:36] <NancyWho> Ah [05:36] <NancyWho> Well [05:37] <NancyWho> It's going to suck for about a year. And then it'll still suck but a little less for another year [05:37] <NancyWho> although [05:37] <The Last Booker DeWitt> we chose so carefully how could we have made a mistake [05:37] <NancyWho> weeeeeell [05:37] <NancyWho> that's not entirely true is it [05:37] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> booker's still in shock from being awakened after so much time [05:38] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> we were mentally stable and cognitively unified for 355 days [05:38] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> haha actually thats a lie it was maybe 300 days [05:39] <NancyWho> as I was saying tho, it's crazy how meeting someone new and the excitement of that really takes over your life [05:39] <The Last Booker DeWitt> yeah dummy dont account for the time in between last time you saw her and ground zero [05:39] <NancyWho> but also [05:39] <NancyWho> I think you know that it's never a good thing to rely on someone else for emotional stability [05:39] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> well you remember the story [05:40] <NancyWho> I would suggest a therapist if you don't already have one. That's what I had to do and it did wonderful things for me [05:40] <The Last Booker DeWitt> maybeeeee [05:41] <NancyWho> I was paranoid and had severe anger issues [05:41] <NancyWho> It helps a lot to talk to a professional. Get everything out there [05:41] <The Last Booker DeWitt> that's what someone said to me [05:41] <The Last Booker DeWitt> i needed the help beforehandd [05:42] <NancyWho> You do have to find someone that clicks with you, but once you do it will be very beneficial. Mental shit sucks and being a teenager is hard and breakups are hard. No shame in getting a little help [05:43] <NancyWho> if I hadn't have done it I probably wouldn't have been able to function so well and I probably wouldn't be in my current relationship [05:44] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> well back in those days i didn't have access to one [05:45] <NancyWho> you should have access to that sort of stuff through school iirc [05:45] <NancyWho> if worst comes to worst I suggest betterhelp.com [05:45] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> it was the only method we had to escape our mental prison [05:45] <NancyWho> on a random note I think Zoe Saldana is really hot [05:46] <NancyWho> but more so as Gamora than her normal self [05:46] <The Last Booker DeWitt> agreed [05:47] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> well the other problem was that we thought we had chosen so carefully [05:47] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> and we did [05:47] <The Last Booker DeWitt> but we failed to account for anomalies [05:47] <NancyWho> chosen what carefully? [05:47] <NancyWho> Your relationship? [05:47] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> a person [05:48] <NancyWho> Because if so I would respectfully disagree based on all the things you said about her over the summer [05:48] <The Last Booker DeWitt> personal opinion [05:49] <NancyWho> I mean, I would agree it might have seemed that way. But if you objectively piece together everything there were red flags [05:49] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> fit everything i wanted perfectly except for the anomalies [05:49] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> well except for 1 glaring red flag i dont think I ever mentioned it to you [05:49] <The Last Booker DeWitt> what would you consider red flags [05:49] <The Last Booker DeWitt> perhaps you could enlighten me [05:51] <NancyWho> It seemed like she had a history. Maybe not particularly of cheating but she had several relationships before you over the span of what? a few years? Then you talked about interactions in public how she would ignore you in favor of talking to other people. You also talked about her gender identity, which to me speaks of someone who may not be the most mentally sound and would probably make other poor decisions. She seemed like a very weak personality, which is probably ultimately why she couldn't tell you how she really felt and dragged things on so that ultimately you got hurt [05:52] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> bingo bingo [05:52] <The Last Booker DeWitt> okay you got me [05:52] <NancyWho> I'm sure there were other things, I just don't remember them all. And you seemed happy so who was I to contradict you [05:53] <NancyWho> Also I know when people are in the middle of relationships they don't want to see things like that [05:53] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> but that doesn't make it any better [05:53] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> there was no malicious intent [05:53] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> that's what drives booker out of his mind [05:54] <NancyWho> No malicious intent from her? [05:54] <The Last Booker DeWitt> that's what Kent meant [05:54] <The Last Booker DeWitt> more like self-serving intent [05:54] <The Last Booker DeWitt> inconsiderate intent [05:54] <NancyWho> Well, here are my thoughts on that [05:54] <The Last Booker DeWitt> cowardly intent [05:55] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> if you cant already tell booker doesnt like cowards [05:55] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> our cowardice is what held us back all these years [05:55] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> so naturally he is not inclined to that particular personality type [05:56] <The Last Booker DeWitt> inclined to like you mean [05:56] <NancyWho> That is a weak personality. She didn't want to hurt your feelings so she didn't say anything. Nobody ever wants to think of themselves as the bad guy. But purposefully hiding something like that from someone is incredibly cruel and hurtful and just a shitty thing to do. [05:56] <NancyWho> That is not a person you need or want in your life, I think [05:57] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> Bingo again [05:58] <The Last Booker DeWitt> Except this half doesn't agree with the final sentence [05:59] <NancyWho> Well from an objective standpoint. If you didn't have feelings for her, would you want someone like that in your life [06:00] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> No [06:00] <The Last Booker DeWitt> Idk [06:01] <NancyWho> I think it's also gonna be hard because you had sex with her. Sex serves two purposes biologically. The first is to create children, obviously. But the second is to bond people together. It literally releases chemicals in the brain that causes that to happen. So yeah, you are still gonna care for her for a while. It's gonna be all muddled and confusing, and it's gonna suck [06:01] <NancyWho> I think the best possible thing for you to do is try to limit your contact with her as much as possible [06:01] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> bingo again [06:03] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> booker takes that one hard [06:03] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> five dozen times is a lot [06:04] <NancyWho> I just don't want you to think that she is all you'd ever be able to get? If that makes sense. Like there will be other people. I think it would be a very bad idea for you to fixate on her. Especially if you know objectively that she is a bad choice for you based on her inherent personality flaws. I think you're a very nice person and fun to talk to. Maybe you have some things you need to work on as far as how you treat your partner in a relationship so take this as a learning experience [06:04] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> Oh we definitely know she won't be the only one [06:04] <NancyWho> that's good [06:04] <NancyWho> but [06:04] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> But Booker's afraid she'll be the only one he wants [06:05] <NancyWho> So, [06:05] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> The Kent half has willingly abandoned most emotions so I don't think I'll see it in the same light [06:05] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> But again we're the same person so it really makes no difference [06:06] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> Also we love being way too theatrical. We can actually believe we're separate entities. Too bad I can't act. [06:06] <NancyWho> I had been dating brandon for about a month, and as soon as we broke up I thought "we just clicked so well, how could I possibly find someone I like more than him" Then I met Drake, and he was so confident and charming, and I love him. Obviously, this is a little different because you were together much longer. But I can totally relate to that sentiment [06:07] <NancyWho> It takes a little while, finding the right person. But then you find someone you just can't help feel really excited about [06:08] <The Last Booker DeWitt> It took us years. This place is fucked. [06:08] <NancyWho> years for what [06:09] <NancyWho> also, look at it this way [06:09] <The Last Booker DeWitt> years to find anyone compatible [06:09] <NancyWho> you're what? 17? [06:09] <The Last Booker DeWitt> 18 fam [06:09] <NancyWho> Oh oops lmao [06:09] <NancyWho> Okay but [06:09] <The Last Booker DeWitt> it's aight :p [06:09] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> made him chuckle thats a good sign [06:09] <NancyWho> You are not going to be the same person in a few years. Like it's crazy the emotional changes that happen from 18 to 21 [06:09] <NancyWho> or even just 20 [06:10] <NancyWho> I don't think that's just me [06:10] <The Last Booker DeWitt> well you had meds eventually [06:10] <The Last Booker DeWitt> i'll need a loooooooooot [06:10] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> probably not that many [06:11] <NancyWho> I mean hey, if you need meds you need meds. Absolutely no shame in that [06:11] <NancyWho> but I just kind of mean the way you view life or problems or people [06:11] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> 21 is so far [06:12] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> late 2014 to early 2017 the emptiest time in my life was 3 years [06:13] <The Last Booker DeWitt> its a miracle we didnt kill ourselves then [06:14] <NancyWho> the emptiest time in my life was from about 15 years old to 19 [06:14] <NancyWho> almost 20 [06:14] <NancyWho> and I never want to go back to that and this may sound cheesy but [06:15] <NancyWho> the best way to get through this and be ready for a new relationship is to figure out how you can be happy without directly relying on someone else to make you feel that way [06:15] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> you just made booker laugh [06:16] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> me on the other hand I'm thinking of a good response to that because logically there's got to be something [06:16] <NancyWho> I think if I were to rely on Drake to make me feel happy our relationship would already be over [06:17] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> I think it just goes back to my nihilistic outlook. [06:17] <NancyWho> because he's human, he's not perfect. He hurts me sometimes and I hurt him sometimes. But because I don't put my entire happiness and mental stability in our relationship, I can deal with those hurts [06:17] <The Last Booker DeWitt> Kent gave up ages ago. [06:17] <NancyWho> also it seemed to me [06:18] <The Last Booker DeWitt> A long time ago he realized that terrorizing LMBW was so fuckin stupid and meaningless and pointless. [06:18] <NancyWho> that your happiness was so directly linked to your relationship that is probably why you ended up mistreating her in some ways. [06:18] <The Last Booker DeWitt> Me, I knew that I just wanted to have someone and forget about everything [06:18] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> You're right [06:19] <NancyWho> so if you want to be prepared for your next relationship, you're gonna need to figure out how to exist in peace on your own [06:19] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> Which is what kills Booker is that some of it is his fault [06:19] <Kent Paul from GTA Vice City> But some of it is not. [06:20] <NancyWho> I mean, yes. You aren't completely without blame, but neither is she. Plus, given her personality traits and other red flags, I'm not convinced that this relationship would have worked out even if you had treated her better.