User blog:GuacamoleCCXR/could this be

the end? before i say anything else, no, i am not quitting over what happened in the last couple days. the events left me feeling irritated, but i’ve stuck to this website through worse. instead, last night got me thinking about the disconnect i’ve been feeling between myself and the community for quite a long time now. perhaps the things i want to talk about are too niche, but regardless, it feels like it always takes a lot of effort to even generate a reaction to the point where i don’t feel like doing it anymore. i’ve come to realise that i have full capacity to move on now, and really, it’s time for me to do that. it’s been 5 and a half years since i made this account and overall, this website has probably influenced me more than i’m willing to admit. i… i was gonna detail this point originally, but honestly, i don’t think anyone cares, so i’ll just cut to the stuff that concerns other people here. i’d actually like to thank you all (by which i mean every user past or present) for being part of this website and making it a place that i could turn to for this long, even those of you whom i’ve had arguments with recently, or frequently over the course of years; we’ve sometimes had good conversations, and sometimes you’ve helped me out (and i hope that you actually feel addressed by this), and i’m thankful for that. if at any later point in time i said something in a discussion that you found to actually be hurtful, here’s a sincere apology. really, i’m sorry. anyway, i don’t really want to make this any more long-winded than it already is. if you feel like staying in touch, feel free to contact me on twitter (@bankpainmusic), discord (bank pain#9752) or add me on snapchat (nick_175bpm). i'll probably stick around on chat for a couple more days, so i guess you'll see me there too.

wish you all a good life lads.

cheers,

guac (and hereby i shed this name.) 