User blog:Obi the LEGO Fan/I have to Apologize: From NG

Sorrowfully, our good friend NG (PrincessLunaMoonDancerNinja78) has requested a ban, and is retiring for the time being. Unfortunately, her blog function seems to be glitching, so I am leaving this message for her. Here it is:

''Dear Fellow Wikians, I have decided that after so much debating with my self that I've made my self realize that being in a haven where I have to choose sides makes my heart break. I can't choose either. We have all messed up, lied, goofed, fallen but we should always be there to raise anther one up. Hurting ones feeling is like hurting your own. Through out my mental break downs they have all sounded stupid, dramatic, unrefined, and not nessasary to say. Yet I ranted them and some how thought I would feel better if I talked to you all. It helped sometimes but honestly I would have sinned greatly toward myself if you all hadn't been here to talk to me. But now with all this drama about the rules and enforcing not enforcing had gotten me thinking hateful in my head. Why? I don't even know my self. But most of my messages once in a while sounded tight. I was angry but also repulsive. Which is no good thing to have. My parents have always taught me and my siblings that "hatred" is one of the greatest sins you could commit. For my age I don't act like it. Don't spell like it. I don't even feel like it. On the LMB I always felt so happy and joyful. But when the update came and I joyed the wiki I became a totally different person. I felt like I was quick tempered, impatient, and not understanding at times. Often I felt like I wanted to yell terrible things. Yet I knew I couldn't. Which made me even more angry. My mind started tightening every time something bad happened on the wiki. Even if it was small I would break down. Now I have gotten to the point where I feel some strange feeling that I want to be alone but yet also feel like I've sinned and need to be punished. That's why I'm asking for a permanent ban to here. I want to punish my self hard for the sin I committed. I'm truly sorry if I ever heard anyone of your feelings. Lately I have been uptight as I said. -Like I want to die but yet I already feel that way. Then we go back to page 1 of my disgusting melt downs of attempting killing my self multiple times. I know that this message doesn't make any sense at all. But the fact is, I've learned that I'm not all nice as I seem. I have a hidden dark side. I think evil, yet I'm saying something totally different on chat. I'm not being honest with you guys if I don't act in chat the way I think. It's being a totally different person. I've tried to change my thoughts. They are mostly gone but I can still have them every once in a while pop in for a visit. That's why I'm leaving here for good. I know I'm stupid. I know I'm annoying. Pretty much everything you could possibly say bad that's me yep. Believe me guys you don't want me here.''