User:Marcel77799/Chat/Logs/12 January 2017

 [10:52]  I do realize that it won't be [10:52]  but I can at least try to move forward now [10:53]  Yeah [10:53]  I mean you learned more about yourself [10:53]  And I just hope it's not too late for coggs, I really love him [10:54]  Don't try to force things right now [10:54]  It's hard, IK [10:54]  Right [10:54]  all I've said to coggs is a written apology I tried to sort out [10:54]  I'm trying really hard to not make anything worse [10:55]  Well, that's sounds alright [10:56]  If he still got some positive feelings he will react [10:56]  I'm just trying to wait, my cousin has talked to him a little bit and trying to be really gentle with him and just asking how he has been, and the reason she talked to him is because she was also kind of doing the negative thing and he hung out with both of us and so she was also involved and he is her friends [10:57]  Friend* [10:57]  Really bad at using chat on a phone [10:58] <Marcel77799> You gotta practice. After some time it feels like on PC :p [10:58] <Lunaicus> I use to do it more, I just haven't in a long time [10:58] <Marcel77799> So what did he say to her? [10:59] <Lunaicus> I'm not fully sure, I know he said he wasn't good enough [10:59] <Marcel77799> Uh, misunderstandings *sigh* [11:00] <Lunaicus> And I know that it was clear that he still cares a lot, and she tried to gently push him to talking to me and being like she also still care a lot [11:00] <Marcel77799> Apparently the sarcasm etc. made him think he is not good enough for you [11:00] <Lunaicus> Yeah, I did really badbefore [11:01] <Marcel77799> Don't always blame yourself [11:01] <Marcel77799> It's not only your fault, lol [11:01] <Lunaicus> I know, but gah I feel really hohelpless [11:01] <Lunaicus> Helpless* [11:02] <Marcel77799> I mean he could have talked about it or tried to understand why you are behaving like zgst [11:02] <Marcel77799> That feeling will unfortunately stay for a bit *hug* [11:02] <Lunaicus> Well I was a jerk about it as well [11:02] <Marcel77799> *that [11:02] <Lunaicus> his problem was sometimes he would lie to me about being happy [11:02] <Lunaicus> and it made me very confused [11:04] <Marcel77799> Usually there shouldn't be a need for hiding negative feelings [11:04] <Lunaicus> I always tell him not to do that [11:04] <Lunaicus> but I also have a problem with anxiety attacks [11:05] <Marcel77799> Yeah, but people still do and then it leads to one huge clusterbuck [11:05] <Lunaicus> Yeaahh [11:05] <Marcel77799> It's a goddamn pain [11:05] <Lunaicus> I just also feel like it's my fault for how bad my anxiety attacks can be sometimes and sometimes seeming out of nowhere [11:06] <Marcel77799> Well, what are ya supposed to do? [11:06] <Lunaicus> I've been trying to get better [11:07] <Marcel77799> Yeah, but don't force it too hard [11:07] <Lunaicus> Coggs has actually helped me stop having depression phases [11:07] <Marcel77799> That's pretty cool [11:08] <Lunaicus> He really has helped me so much [11:10] <Marcel77799> Then again communication is still an issue. I mean a friend of mine is kinda similar in quite a few ways. We can talk about basically everything but when it comes to certain aspects she never says something. That messes up quite a lot. IDK why some people can't communicate their problems with othees right away [11:10] <Lunaicus> I really love him and I don't want to lose him [11:10] <Alemas2005> Well, gotta go. [11:10] <Legoanimals750> o/ [11:10] <Alemas2005> Hope Coggs will reply with good stuff, Luna. [11:10] <Marcel77799> Especially if you talk about way more private stuff [11:10] <Alemas2005> Bye. :P [11:10] <Lunaicus> Thank tou [11:13] <Marcel77799> Try to get some distance for now and calm down a bit in general. Strong emotions won't leave obviously... [11:13] <Satoshi2> Yeah [11:14] <Lunaicus> I'm just getting anxiety attacks on and off from this whole mess a lot band it's like idk what to do [11:14] <Marcel77799> Be a bit more self-confident and try to be happy sometimes [11:15] <Marcel77799> Is there a way to distract yourself? [11:15] <Lunaicus> I am trying [11:15] <Lunaicus> And sometimes but nights are really hard [11:15] <Lunaicus> And mornings [11:16] <Marcel77799> I mean it probably sounds strange but keep yourself busy and try to maintain a good schedule [11:17] <Marcel77799> So you are forced to do other stuff and not think about it [11:18] <Lunaicus> I am I do try, it's just anxiety it's like I do what I wabt [11:18] <Marcel77799> Hmm yeah, it's hard for me to relate to that [11:19] <Marcel77799> Anyway, I'm sorry but I g2g [11:19] <Lunaicus> It seems okay, thank you [11:19] <Marcel77799> I hope everything works out for you in the end :) [11:19] <Lunaicus> Thank you [11:19] <Marcel77799> No problem [11:20] <Marcel77799> G'night guys o/ (zzz) [11:20] <Lunaicus> Night [11:21] <Satoshi2> Cya [11:22] <Satoshi2> Hey Bubbles o\ [11:28] <Satoshi2> oh [12:03] <Lunaicus> Soooo [12:04] <Lunaicus> Does anyone want to see my work in progress wig for kakyoin [12:04] <Legoanimals750> o/ [12:05] <Legoanimals750> Sure [12:06] <Lunaicus> http://thaterenwithfigures.tumblr.com/ [12:06] <Lunaicus> http://www.fightersgeneration.com/nx9/char/kakyoin-face-a.png [12:06] <Legoanimals750> nice [12:07] <Lunaicus> We are trying really hard [12:08] <Legoanimals750> It looks good. (y) [12:09] <Lunaicus> Thank you it's my first wig [12:09] <Legoanimals750> Cool [12:11] <Lunaicus> I'm going to be a good kakyoin [12:12] <Legoanimals750> idk what that is [12:12] <Lunaicus> I showed a picture of him? [12:12] <Legoanimals750> Oh, right [12:13] <Lunaicus> Trying really hard to make it look right [12:13] <Legoanimals750> looks great so far! [12:14] <Lunaicus> Thank you [12:14] <Legoanimals750> You're welcome. [12:15] <Lunaicus> I'm really excited [12:17] <Legoanimals750> Hi AP o/ [12:17] <AmazingPythor> ay [12:19] <Romaniandude12> hi [12:20] <Lunaicus> Hm [12:33] <Roddy15> okay i'm watching an alex jones thing [12:33] <Roddy15> and they show there "graph" of how trustworthy news sources are [12:34] <Roddy15> and the daily mail is considered to them as trustworthy as fox news (which obviously is very trustworthy) [12:34] <Roddy15> they put the daily mail above the BBC and Sky News... [12:34] <AmazingPythor> Fox above BBC [12:35] <AmazingPythor> yes [12:35] <Roddy15> the daily mail hardly ever reports news [12:35] <Roddy15> http://www.dailymail.co.uk/home/index.html [12:35] <Roddy15> seriously...this and fox news are trustworthy? :P [12:36] <Roddy15> fair enough if he thinks fox news are so great despite being republican sellouts but the DM is a tabloid that would sooner report on a celebrity losing a gram of weight over anything else :P [12:39] <Roddy15> i mean maybe he ranked them so highly because of this: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/sciencetech/article-4109940/Do-think-Trump-better-looking-Obama-Study-suggests-right-wing-people-attractive-left.html :P [12:41] <Jerry Seinfeld> who reads the daily mail for real news [12:41] <Roddy15> alex jones apparently :P