User blog:MsD/I wrote this earlier today

This blog is gonna make me seem like a whiny baby, because people actually have to deal with stupid decisions they made out of peer pressure in real life. This is on the internet.

And before I start, if this blog sucks, I'm in the car right now. I won't be home for like five hours.

A few weeks ago, I started broadcasting on Spreaker to the LMBW, and me and a group called Nashtron ended up going to Community Central and joking around there. We then agreed to troll Community Central, and a neighbour site, Brickimedia. I, not to let anyone down, decided I would follow through with their plan.

I took me a whole to figure out how to do everything, but after a while through last week we commenced with the attacks. I had a bad feeling, but hey, what else am I supposed to do in a one-floor beach house when everyone's asleep in the evening.

At first I didn't really feel anything about the attacks, it was nothing I hadn't done before when I was like twelve, but after a while I started to wonder what the he- erm, heck I was doing.

It got really out of hand, as I imagined it would, and then LFY contacted me with information Meiko had given him basically saying that what I was doing was illegal and that this had gotten WAY out of hand. I was really worried about myself, what I was doing to the Brickimedia community, but it wasn't very surprising. But more than anything, it angered me. I had actually built up trust with the sites I spent my teen years on, and because of peer pressure I had ruined it all in one swoop. It's a replay of BoardsCraft, a replay of my 2012 trolling sprees, a replay of everything I had promised I was done with. But, I wasn't done with it.

Once a troll, you're always a troll. Once you've dedicated time to bringing a group of people down, you never are the same again. And if you are, you never actually did it. Once you're a troll, a Nashtron, anything with a negative effect on an area, you're never looked at the same way again. Not because of just plain bogus like some people think, not because of a stupid grudge, it's because of you and your inability to move on and grow up.

So MsD, you're rambling on about how horrible trolls are, but what are you talking about? This is just a more nicely worded version of all your other blogs: nonsensical and offensive information nobody even cares about!

I wrote this blog because I feel horrible for what I have done to the online LEGO community; from the 2012 trollings, the 2013 dupings, BoardsCraft, and now this; I have said sorry after every one, and none have held true. None. It's because of MY bogus. It's because of MY stupid grudge. It's not the inverse. Something I've never understood. I've done stupid things for stupid reasons and blamed it on perfectly good people like LFY. Back in 2012 it was Klintrin I blamed it all on. In 2013 it was Obi and Seaside. In BoardsCraft it was Samed, Alemas, and LFY. And now it's allllll LFY's fault. Trolls never change. They never learn. They never care. Treat me as evidence. Treat me as the ultimate example of the worst user someone could possibly be to a community. Treat me as the troll I am.

After almost three years on this site, I haven't learned anything about how to be a good user. I haven't bothered to do anything nice. Time and time again I do something stupid, blame it on someone else and then hate on the community more. I don't know why you guys can't just permablock people like me an and move on. You had a chance in 2012. You had a chance in 2013. You had a chance in BoardsCraft. You had a chance now. What's with all the sympathy? Why do you guys care to allow me to stay?