Board Thread:Fun and Games/@comment-8605505-20130513135842/@comment-24199311-20130513173505

YWP,

I don't know if you're reading this, but I hope you do. I know how you're feeling. To an extent if not exactly. When I was younger I was a complete bully magnet. I would get beat up almost every day. The words that were said to me still cut deeply. Besides that I have many reasons to be depressed. I've tried to kill myself. But I was stopped. I believe there's a God out there that cares about me.

I resolved not to end my life shortly after one of my sisters close friends commuted suicide. To be honest it sickened me. So many people showed up at the funeral, and how many knew her well enough to know what she was struggling with? It seemed that nobody cared until she died. But when I looked at the people, and talked to them, all of them wished they could have helped her. Society will tell you people are typically okay, but I beg to differ. This is a horrible, broken world.

So why don't i kill myself? I encourage you to dig into Christianity and the God of the bible. There are many people around here that would be willing to discuss it with you. (Myself included.) I truly believe that God has something more for my life. Otherwise when I tried to kill myself, I would have succeeded. Another thing that stops me is the people in my life. I don't think they understand me, but they care. Just look at the other people commenting in this thread. It took my sister months not to burst out in tears when the girl I mentioned early was brought up in discussion. I also stay for my friends. I don't have many, but they are there for me. One of the things that helps me through each day is music. I don't know what your style is, but check out Three Days Grace, Never To Late and Billy Talent, Saint Veronika. I also believe there is an afterlife, hundreds of times better than this.

In closing I pray you won't go through with it. If you need somebody to talk to, shoot me a message.